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Today I want to talk about fantasies.
I have always had an imagination. It
would make sense that I write now, my mind is never resting. I think
it unnerves Mr. McKay sometimes as I lay on the couch staring into
space. “Do you want the remote?” he'll ask.
No, because I'm not really watching
anything, I was just lost in thought, lost in my own little world.
Since I've broken my ankle and have
been forced to relax and slow down, my fantasies have run rampant. It
is no secret that I have a spanking kink and I love an alpha male.
And since having to take care of me 24/7 my sweet, teddy bear of a
husband has become much more deliciously alpha—sending my fantasies
into overdrive.
When I ask if I can help with the
dishes because he seems overwhelmed having to tend to every household
task. He remains silent as I plead my case, telling him that I can
stand on one foot and lean against the counter while I wash a few
dishes, I'll even tell him if I get tired, and I won't lie about it,
I will really tell him. I go on like a little kid promising to take
care of a baby kitten if only we can bring her home!
He waits until I finish and then he
raises his eyebrows. “No.” He holds up his hand when I open my
mouth to protest. “You made yourself a sandwich today, that was
your one pass and enough for today. Stay there, with your foot up.”
Oh, it almost makes me want to say
'Yes, sir' which is something I am sure I have never said in my
entire life. I don't argue and he goes and takes care of the dinner
dishes himself, at least he can't say I didn't offer.
But now my fantasies are kick started.
As my husband is in the next room cleaning the kitchen and I stay on
the couch obeying his orders, I indulge myself in a quick fantasy of
what would happen if I weren't a good patient. If I continuously
shirked his orders and did what I wanted.
Surely he would take me to task, pull
me over his lap and spank me. That is always how it goes in the
books, right? If I were risking my own health and welfare then I
would be in for it...
Only that's not how it would go in real
life, at least not for me. I listen to my husband and try to keep my
foot up and relax not because he would spank me if I didn't. Mostly
because I don't want to hurt myself more. And because I want to keep
that anxious and concerned look off of his face that he had the first
weekend I was home and writhing on the couch in pain. He seemed hurt
that I was hurting, and why would I intentionally do that?
No, our spanking has always been for
fun and I insert my fantasies in to make it seem more real to me. He
was reticent to try it at first, he never wanted to spank too hard,
he felt strange using implements, and he was aghast when he left
marks. We moved past that, thankfully, and he claims to even
understand what I get out of it even if he does not share my fetish.
But now that I am broken he is back to
treating me like glass. And I fear this will be a major set back.
Thankfully we have eased back into the sex. It was awkward at first
keeping my cast out of the way, propped up on a pillow and not
twisting my leg too much. But we were never going to make it four
weeks, that's like a prison term or something.
He's not eager to get back to the
spanking, but I am. I can't just rely on my fantasies for that.
So we'll see. Maybe if I keep being a
really good patient...
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Write those fantasies down , I'm sure they'll make a good book. It's frustrating when the need is strong but the body is off limits, he'll be back into the swing of it soon.
ReplyDeleteI think the pic is of James Dean, although he does usually have a beard.
It's been a long three weeks... I'm hoping to get the all clear from the doctor next week! (To get the cast off, not for spanking, although that would be an interesting visit.)
DeleteAnd an interesting story. Doctor, would you mind hurrying things along, um... I have plans for tonight, lol.
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DeleteI love how you share so much with your readers, Casey. You husband sounds so wonderful. Like you, the reality often isn't like we write in our books and I've done a lot of thinking about that too (thankfully I didn't have to break my ankle though) I think you hit the key difference. In reality us women don't want to hurt the men who love us, but in our books we have to have the women make mistakes more to create the tension that keeps the story interesting, It is such a hard line to walk as an author having your heroine (or hero) do enough stupid stuff to create the tension but not do so much that the readers start to not like them. Tricky... very tricky. Feel better!
ReplyDeleteThanks Livia! You are right, it is a tricky line to walk. But that is part of the fun I suppose! Thanks for the well wishes :)
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