The Threat

Let me give you a little back story, a lead up to this epic threat I am about to share.

This past winter I threw myself into the world of spanking fiction author-dom. “I can do this.” I said. “This will be so much fun.” I said. “This is the outlet I am looking for!”

And I did and it was and it is. My husband was super supportive, he figured out all the techy stuff, just let me do my thing. Made me an awesome cover, uploaded my book, helped me to figure out my marketing.

Then I started book #2, then I stopped, then I switched to another idea, then I stopped. Then I came up with a third idea- decided to stick with the second. Completely revamped second idea. I literally have made zero progress for months...

My husband is nice, supportive, asks me what I think is going wrong. Well, I've been busy, I've been distracted, I've been stressed (turns out I am super good at excuses and validating my non-productiveness).

He tried to help me come up with a better writing schedule, he tried to help me stick to said writing schedule. Turns out I get very defensive when someone else is trying to tell me when I 'should' be writing.

Finally, I got the “If you're doing this, then do it. There is no can't, just do it” lecture. I was blinking back tears- I asked him why he was being so mean. (I realize this was unfair of me, I was pretty much begging him to support me and keep me on track and then he gets real with me and I cry.)

But you know what? I buckled down and got to writing... for like a week. And then I was back to being busy, and distracted, and stressed- and I have all these other ideas, if I just maybe quit this one book, then I can- Oh, wait, I see what I am doing here.

Saturday we had another 'talk' then came the threat. We set a time frame, some goals, figured out some marketing, and then-

“I'm just not going to spank you until your book's done.”

What?? My head whips around, he's not serious, right?

My husband has said repeatedly that he doesn't think Domestic Discipline would work for a spanko like me, you know, because I like getting spanked.

Didn't he just reverse it though? He's still using spanking as a punishment, but he's keeping it from me!

I feel like we are celebrating Opposite Day over here, nothing is what it seems.

I'm feeling strangely motivated to write though...